Past
Window (1999)
Dancer Erin Panaciulli was so inspired by her
portrayal of Judith Kàlmàn in Spirit
Unbroken that she composed a poem, Past
Window, about a young girl of the Holocaust. The four-minute
solo work, choreographed to her poem and set to the music of John
Williams (Auschwitz-Birkenau from Schindler's
List), was created to stir the imagination through emotion,
rhythm, and sound.
Past Window
Feel the smoothness of the glass.
Sense the cold from outside.
Oh, how I remember that night.
Peering out the window, the same coldness
Soldiers everywhere, yelling ,screaming
Guns; telling us to go to the factory immediately.
They were awful, heartless souls, Nazis.
The thought makes me cringe.
They forced us to work. If you stopped "God" you
would
Never know. My mother and I were forced to walk on the side of the
road and kiss the filthy ground.
Friends, "so called," pointed and laughed.
I covered my face
My mother and I, in shame.
The village, a ghetto. Our lives, gone.
Belief in God, strong.
Even if He is silent.
Soon we were deported. Cold, shaking, dark;
Reaching for a drop of water through a crack,
Remembering, Grandma's once enjoyed garden.
My young, slim body, half-dead,
Reached the final destination.
Weak and tired I clenched my fist
Feeling anger.
Watching one by one, going our own ways.
Seeing smog from the fire.
I went opposite.
My mother "Why" gone.
Feeling the ashes between my fingers
Unwanting to believe
it's over.
Wiping my bony face
I reach my hands up
Towards the silence, feeling the pain, once more.
My hands scarred; forever. Only thing remains,
The "Me" missing from my past
Through the cold window.
-Erin Panaciulli
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